The Myth That Closure Comes From Resolution
I think many of us are taught in some form or another that closure comes when we get justice. We’re taught that after there’s a resolution, an understanding, a conversation, or some type of acknowledgment – that’s when closure happens.
That would be the justice version of closure that’s nice and complete. This version has a clear beginning and end point, and it happens when an injustice is later addressed.
In real life, however, we don’t always get remedies. People oftentimes don’t acknowledge what they did, and at some point you realize you’re responsible for your own peace.
Finding resolution doesn’t always arrive in the neat, justified version we hope for – clean, clear, and tied up with a final explanation. Even so, it can still find its way to us in other forms. Sometimes you can identify moving through closure when you begin to feel the grief that comes with it.
When the Ending You Needed Never Happens
This can happen in any circumstance. Maybe you experienced consistent abuse at home, at school, or at work. Maybe you were in a relationship that ended suddenly and with no explanation. You might need closure from a betrayal or abandonment.
Anytime that acknowledgement never comes, it can feel like you’re on a bit of an emotional pause. It can feel like you’re stuck in these moments of questioning everything you did, everything they did, and everything that happened. For some of us, these ruminating thoughts are what keeps us tethered to the event, and they can also be what gives our power away.
Sometimes we need to accept that we might not get the conversation we were hoping for.
The Hidden Belief That Keeps People Stuck
Many people unknowingly hold the equation that closure equals fairness. So when that fairness and that justice never comes, the nervous system keeps waiting. It waits for a validation of what happened and that your emotions were valid. It can be waiting for a recognition that you’re hurt and that you didn’t deserve to be hurt.
Your nervous system might want a correction of the narrative, but closure isn’t something someone grants you – it’s something that you allow yourself to have. Check out Closure is a Boundary – Reclaiming Your Narrative
It’s incredibly powerful to make the choice and take the responsibility for your own peace, to move on without that piece of the puzzle that you’re looking for. When you tell yourself the story that “they knew exactly what they were doing”, or “I should’ve been treated differently”, or “this should’ve happened”, or “that should’ve happened”, even if it’s true – that type of thinking keeps you tied to the person or event that cost you harm. It keeps you from your power.
Maybe they did to you wrong on purpose. Maybe they knew exactly what they were doing. But it’s your job to frame that for yourself in a way that works for you rather than keeping you under their power.
The Shift – Closure That’s Felt as Mourning Instead of Proof
When we talk about mourning and grief and closure, we’re referring to a lot of different moving parts.
Depending on what you’re talking about, maybe you thought you found your dream job that you would retire from, and then something changed and you no longer feel that way. In this case you would be mourning the way you initially felt about your job. You’re mourning the person you were when you accepted the position and were full of hope and promise and potential. You’re grieving what you thought you could’ve had, and what you won’t have moving forward.
Maybe you were in a romantic relationship that ended abruptly. There’s a lot of possibility that’s no longer an option. In this case, you’re mourning the person who you were when you were with your partner. You’re mourning the past, and a future that’s different from what you thought you wanted.
There’s actually a lot of grief that comes along with mourning and closure. There is sadness that comes with accepting reality as imperfect – and oftentimes not what we were expecting.
What This Kind of Closure Actually Feels Like
This kind of closure is not dramatic, it’s not triumphant, and it’s not some movie scene. This type of closure is, a lot of times, very quiet and small.
It can look like being sad without being willing to argue. It often looks like accepting without agreeing or being able to understand the situation without making excuses.
Grief can look different for everyone. For me, it can look like crying at random times, or experiencing low energy and feelings of sadness.
Allowing yourself the space to feel your feelings, accepting those feelings, and still choosing to move on – that’s closure. Check out Healthy Detachment – What It Is (and What It Isn’t)
The Moment Closure Quietly Arrives
It is easy to hold onto that old mindset, though, it really is. The nervous system wants justice, closure, and buttoned-up reality because it has a clear beginning, middle, and end. However, we know that it doesn’t always work that way. When we are able to hold our emotions and the facts of what happened at the same time, we might notice some other things about our behavior as well.
You might notice that you replay the incident less in your mind. You might notice that you feel less of a need to explain yourself, or what happened. Closure looks like a little bit more quiet space in your mind because it’s no longer being held by a moment that might never come.
You can tell that you’re experiencing closure because anything related to the person or event loses its urgency. You don’t feel that feeling of anxiety, or need to act quickly when it comes to your memory. In fact, when you remember what happened you might notice that your body doesn’t tense up anymore, or you otherwise remain calm.
In addition, the need to prove yourself, understand, or get what you wanted from that person eventually fades as well.
What You Gain When You Stop Waiting for Justice
Walking with yourself through this process of closure and grief after trauma is no easy task. However, nothing worth doing is ever easy.
Strengths and skills that are built, are not done so effortlessly – growth is often painful.
When you finally get to the other side of your closure and your grief, you will notice that you’re different. Through this experience you’ll have found trust in yourself and your ability to take care of yourself no matter what. You might have increased self-awareness, and you know things about yourself that you didn’t know before. You might find that you’re a little less afraid of new experiences or new people or new conflict. Getting through a process such as this teaches you your own emotional steadiness. And it teaches you a bit more about being mindful. Check out Self-Trust Series: Self-Trust in Real Time
Closure Isn’t a Victory, It’s a Release
Closure as a process can look a lot of different ways for a lot of different people and a lot of different situations. The reality though, for many of us, is that we never get the accountability or apology that we’ve been waiting for. Many of us will wait around and waste our precious time of our lives hoping that someone else grants us closure, when really it’s something that we find for ourselves.
Grief that follows closure with no clear resolution has a lot of stages and feelings attached to it.
Grief can look like sadness that doesn’t need to take action. It could be mourning the loss of what could’ve been, the loss of what was, and all the other ideas you had in your head.
When we grieve, we grieve many things at once.
Then, on the other side of grief, we learn things about ourselves. We walk through the flames, and we become much stronger on the other side. More refined.
Sometimes, in order to grow, you have to grow through.
But the pain of the work that you suffer, with the intention of coming out better on the other side – is always worth it.
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How to Stop Absorbing Other People’s Energy: A Guide for Empaths,
Understanding Validation and How to Cultivate it for Yourself ,
Give Yourself the Right Conditions to Grow,
Acting Out of Obligation,
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