First Post: A Journey of Self-Discovery

I was talking to my therapist this morning, I told him how I keep giving myself excuses for not starting my blog posts.

He noted that it was my programming that was keeping me from starting a blog.

I reminded myself of fear of rejection, and the possibility of feeling abandoned, or regretful about my decision to start a blog. I had this vision of my mom, all adorable in her little-old-lady housecoat, doing an innocent google search of my name and being bombarded by posts of me complaining about her parenting abilities.

What if someone got hurt? What if someone didn’t agree? What if someone was mean to me? How would I handle all of that? I had a lot of questions go through my head, the same ones that always make their way to me, but then I thought – I want to do it anyway.

I am excited and open to the possibility of my thoughts being out there for anyone to know.

I am looking forward to seeing more examples of how I have chosen to be there for myself over the years.

I have dedicated so much time to myself. I have journaled, questioned, explored, investigated and shown up every single day for myself. In the past, I received messages of not being enough, but the moment I realized I had a choice,I chose myself and never looked back. 

My main goal for this blog is to narrate my story thus far.

I want to share what I’ve learned, and experiences I’ve had on my journey of self-discovery, reparenting myself and creating the person that I ultimately want to be.

I understand that I am still on my journey, and if I had to guess, it is actually a journey that has no end. I’m always learning, growing, flowing.

This blog is going to be documentation of what I have experienced so far, and will probably include new things that add to who I am.

I’ll keep you posted on the things that I add, and take away, and change, since I have the liberty to do that – as do we all.

I want to be open minded and curious about everything. I want to ask questions and see how many perspectives I can see things from and I want to grow and expand as much as possible. 

In each blog, I’ll be taking a look at a different thought or concept that I’ve learned over time and analyze that experience through a lens of curiosity.

I’m not a therapist or an expert, I am a woman on a journey to learn about and understand herself. I may make suggestions, but it is in no way meant to be a final answer for anyone. I present my story and then you choose if you can use any of it for yourself, there’s no pressure.

My content is being made available for those who are looking for it, looking for someone to relate to, looking for some validation that they’re not alone.

Regardless of the reason, I’m glad you’re here. Thank you for spending this time with me and I hope you can find something here that benefits your journey forward.